Dear AK,
I wish we could be friends. I wish you could have a real conversation with me like you actually remember who i am. I wish we could just be happy again. I wish i could be there for you every second. Because I want to be the person you call for a ride when you need one. Or when you just need someone to talk to, I wish i could be the one you want to vent to. I wish i could take away all of your problems and make them my own so you didn’t have to deal with them. I wish your mother didn’t judge me. I wish everyone could see how happy we were. I wish you could remember how happy we were. There’s no one else I want to take out to dinner or do nice things for. There’s no one else that’s interests me half as much as you do. There’s no one I’d be more proud to call mine than you. & to be completely honest right here right now, there’s no one else who’s made me fall for them. I learned how to love from you. You taught me how to do it unselfishly. It’s kinda awesome. I just wish you knew how much i adore you. I mean you could run up to me and punch me in the face and i’d probably just sit there smiling like an idiot cause i just don’t care. You’re talented and your laughter is addictive. I love how you delete texts a million times before you send them. I love how your favorite restaurant is drunken jacks. I love the way you sing, you do it with such heart and emotions. I love the way you make no sense sometimes when you’re trying to say something really meaningful. It’s so damn cute. I love how you try to act black when rap music comes on, but you’re so white and it’s hilarious. I love how we used to text alllllllll the time before we dated or anything. Because we’ve always had that connection. I hate seeing tears come from your eyes. That’s the worst pain i’ve ever felt. Especially when i’m the one who caused them. Cause that’s not how i ever want you to feel. You’re amazing and beautiful. You deserve so much better than me, i hope you find what you’re looking for someday. I really do. And whoever you choose to be with, i hope they know how lucky they are to have you. And they damn well better treat you right every second. Because that’s what you deserve. & I’m smiling right now because i’m just so proud you ash. That’s all I’d want you to know. But i should probably shut up now. Because I’ve said way too much already.
